This feeling of happiness
That is so awesome
So abundant and plentiful
Yet so full of fear
For happiness is a sin
That has no cure
In the eyes of the seer
Who is unawares of the truth
The truth is hidden
Behind the scar of a Smile
That is detached from reality
And vanishing into eternity
Overwhelmed by the truth
Fearful of the deceipt
Afraid of the dark truth
Behind the warmth of the Smile
I wish I could
I wish I were
I wish I had
I wish I never
Wishes for a future
That would be bright
Full of happiness and joy
Void of fear and rejection
The pain beneath
The hurt of heart
With a crippling numbness
Designed to stabilize
The mind is the magic
The wind the potion
That carries the burden
To the heavens beyond
I wish I were
I wish I had
I wish I could
I wish I never
The design is beautiful
The art is crumpled
Reality is a drama
Of an ounce of hope
Early in the morning
Woken up by a cockroach
Face baked from the tap water
Brought down to knees
A pain in a distant corner
Of the boiling tummy
Nothing else matters
A decent life is all that matters
There can be no happiness
Without decency and dignity
There can be no joy
With a heavy heart
Nothing else matters
The warmth is all that matters
The good and the Bad
The time is now
To make a difference
With a hear2heart talk
There is no going back
There is only one way
To the happiness desired
Yet the impossible road
The last hour is neigh
The decision is high
It has to be a sigh
Of the worst bye
Life is best
When the chest is full
Of the goodness
Of righteousness
It will be soon
With the rest gone
And the night lit
With a bright light
Like a Holiness
Of a Loneliness
A Shrine of Happiness
In a world of Nothingness
Little is wanted
Much is desired
More is expected
But was not destined
Expected
But unexpected
Wanted yet unwanted
Yet not a Worldly Affair
The Truth
Where in the World
Will it ever be accepted?
Where Lies are more glorious
Two after Twenty
Nine after Twenty
Are the numbers of Bounty
Of a conscience full of Beauty
A truth
Wrapped in a patch of Darkness
Is where Happiness dwell
With a light unseen by Any
Is where the Truth lives
And Shall live forever and Ever
And that is the Essence
Of the Madness Misunderstood
I have a Story
A story to Tell
of Nothingness
a past Bygone
The Painting on the Wall
of a Mind of Madness
Desperate and Eager
to Conquer the Fear
The Fear of Losing
What did not Exist
What could have been
the Joy of Life
The Sorrow of Darkness
in the depth of Happiness
That was never to be
a Mother’s Wish never to be
the Wall of Darkness
that would keep apart
the Happiness and Joy
That was Never to be
The untold Story
the unspoken Word
of the Sorrow that was
and the joy Never to be
Never ever will there be
the Goodness the Happiness
Forever drowned Beneath the Grace
Never to be
Happy I am
For the Loneliness
In the Darkness
Void of Happiness
It is a Crime
to find Madness
in the Craziness
of what is Lost
Learnt the Art
played the Part
with a mind Smart
of a wounded Heart
There will never be
a drama of Joy
of the Joyful Smiles
That could have Been
Mohamed Shihab
Smile and Let Smile 